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  • Addicted to meth to cope with pain...help?

    I had over a year clean. I was going to meetings, I was doing step work, had a sponsor and all that. However, I found out in April that my daughter was sexually assaulted by a guy that was supposed to be my best friend and he was living with me. She was only 2 at the time. And I felt so guilty and ashamed from being unable to protect her that I later relapsed in July. It's been a mess since. I lost my house, lost physical custody of my daughter, I am living in a homeless shelter and I am engaged to a man who is currently in jail. I am addicted to meth bad this time. I just can't cope with letting her down more than with just the assault. I let her down when I relapsed and lost my home when I swore to her I wouldn't relapse again. But here I am and I don't have enough respect for myself to want to be clean for myself but to do it for her and my fiance isn't enough. What do I do? Not to mention the guy that hurt her got away with it because there was no physical evidence. She is attending therapy for PTSD at 3 years old. I feel like a terrible mother...
    kasey.michelle
  • Not sure how to post

    Hey Sue. Welcome to the forum!! You did a great job for your first post, and even posted in the correct category, so you are on the right track. :) To comment on other people's posts, click on their subject line and it will bring you to that particular post's discussion. There should be a text box at the bottom of the page that says "Leave a Comment".. which is what I am doing now!

    I hope that helps!

    forumadmin
  • Not sure how to post

    Ty I'm hoping that I get this forum thing figured out. It helps to know I'm.on the right track so Ty
    forumadmin
  • Not sure how to post

    Hi my name is Sue I'm a 61 yrs of living life
    I'm not sure how to do this forum thing. I know old school weren't into this. I'm Sure it's simple so could any one clue me in like how do I like add coments or post under topics
    This here is the first time I saw were and how any way get me headed in the right direction and here I am

    NClarke2017
  • Can't handle much more

    Hitting that point where you're at that crossroads of continuing doing what you've been doing and hoping for different results...or the jumping off point. I've been there. Lots of false starts, but finally got in the program. Drying out or detox, most important, you can't make a decision while you are still under control of a mind altering substance. Go for it. There isn't any 'cure' yet for being a drug addict or drunk. Total abstinence is really the only solution. That caused ME a lot of fear and regret. It was all unfounded, as the life I found after being honest with myself has been great, and only getting better. Don't close your mind to any possibilities. Miracles happen all the time.

    Chris
  • Was addicted to opioids Now drinking

    Please be very very careful. Many people struggle with relapse, so you are not alone. And many individuals end up overdosing during a relapse because 1) they get a bad batch 2) their tolerances are still low. Please tread carefully!! It seems like you have not turned to opioids but just alcohol. Look into a support group or treatment for your mental health. I've heard that fighting cravings and triggers for drugs is a huge part of the battle and it all takes place after the detox. The detox isn't the entire recovery.. this is just the next phase of your battle. Best of luck to you and I urge you to seek support & help before it gets worse.

    bratpitt
  • Recovery trough healing guidance

    Starting the road, alone. I never thought that this will be me an broken addict. Surviving a undiagnosed bipolar mothers that for some reason abusing me and continues abandoning me from the day I was born. They say what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, I don’t really know about that why did I then become an addict to not feeling. I’m scared of the day all the feelings will come back and it will be time to deal with it but I need to. The pain that I carry within me has being eating me for as long as I can remember. I need to come clean and deal with all this emotions, for myself.
    forumadminNClarke2017
  • Recovery trough healing guidance

    Starting the road, alone. I never thought that this will be me an broken addict. Surviving a undiagnosed bipolar mothers that for some reason abusing me and continues abandoning me from the day I was born. They say what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, I don’t really know about that why did I then become an addict to not feeling. I’m scared of the day all the feelings will come back and it will be time to deal with it but I need to. The pain that I carry within me has being eating me for as long as I can remember. I need to come clean and deal with all this emotions, for myself.
    forumadminNClarke2017
  • Using dreams?

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    Need help setting up a support network for my spouse.
    NClarke2017
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