Hi. Good to hear from you. I don't know wtf is going on with your life. But I do want to tell you that bad people can change. Now, I don't believe you are a bad person. Maybe you've done shitty things, I wouldn't know. But shitty people can get better. You are only defined by your mistakes if you throw in the towel now and decide to be shitty forever. Bad people can become better.
Don't be terrified for treatment. Shit, I'd be more terrified of giving up or accepting my fate. Don't be terrified of getting help.
@carlos.ladner Wow that's amazing! Yeah by the grace of god is the only way he's not in jail for life DAMN
That good you found a way to make it work. I had to do everything on my own after I visited with victims. If I didn't meet them I don't think i would've been able to kick it by myself. Gotta stay motivated for life bro
nah fuck that, see this is why its nearly impossible to do on your own, your head is going to keep telling you "one more time" until its so loud its all you can hear. Addiction has never been a matter of will power, it's always a matter of mental health. Eventually your will power is gonna lose out when "one more time" sounds way better than anything you're doing or could do at the time. There is so much help out there available to you. Call FAN, they will get you connected with the correct services for you to find true lasting sobriety. 833-811-1505