Starting the road, alone. I never thought that this will be me an broken addict. Surviving a undiagnosed bipolar mothers that for some reason abusing me and continues abandoning me from the day I was born. They say what doesn’t kill you only makes you stronger, I don’t really know about that why did I then become an addict to not feeling. I’m scared of the day all the feelings will come back and it will be time to deal with it but I need to. The pain that I carry within me has being eating me for as long as I can remember. I need to come clean and deal with all this emotions, for myself.