I've been clean for 2 years now but so much stuff has been happening in my life lately where I feel like the only thing that will make all the stress go away is the drugs. I did everything I could get my hands on. Pills, meth, heroin, crack, acid. Whatever. Its A miracle I'm even alive. I overdosed at least 4 times to my knowledge. I am now with a man that helped me get sober. He is the reason I'm still sober right now. But if I slip up and go back on the drugs he will leave me. I don't want to lose him. I don't want to go back to the way things were before. I want to stay sober but its getting so hard. My dad is also an addict (he's been addicted to crack for over 20 years now). Which doesn't help. My family pretty much makes me feel like I'm worthless. Most days, unless I'm with my boyfriend, I feel like either killing myself or getting high. When I got off the drugs I started drinking heavily. Every day all day. I don't remember half the things I did and had alcohol poisoning too many times to count. But to me, it was better than drugs. I'm almost a year sober from alcohol. But I want so bad to drink and forget all my problems. I feel like my boyfriend is starting to hate me. We've been having a lot of issues lately.. Not huge ones but still. I feel he'd be happier with another girl. On Top of that we are both pretty sure I'm pregnant. I don't want to drink or get high again if I am. But I don't know how much longer I can stay sober. I can't go to any support groups because my family would have to take me and they don't know I'm an ex addict. What Do I do..? How do I stay sober so I don't lose everything I have..?